Where am I? (And what is this strange blessing?)

Back where I started…

You know when you’re pushing all your goals forward so hard and yet none of them are panning out? I felt that way before the holidays this year and so after the exchanging of gifts and colds, I took my foot off the pedal of life and embraced the winter sloth mode to give myself a break and figure out it all out.

I pretty much watched what I wanted, slept when I wanted, ate whatever I wanted, and let myself cruise for the season. The only thing to get my attention was work or home matters, and as the weeks went by and I got clarity about my path at the same time the circumstances around my studio were changing.

I looked at new spaces, found people to share space with, patrons to cover rent, and applied for leases, but God (The Universe/Allah/Source/What-have-you) works in mysterious ways and it's timing is nothing short of a mystery, because, after all these possibilities, I ended up taking the path of least resistance, which was to “Bring it all Home!”

I didn’t pay attention to the days or dates, I barely knew what day was Tuesday versus Saturday, but I ended up booking a truck, my boyfriend, my assistant, and a fellow artist for February 7th to move everything out of my studio at Highland Design Farm and back to Milford NJ. Over the next few days, I looked at the boxes of materials, piles of paintings, and leaning easels eagerly awaiting the help of my friend Cindy, of Cindy B Designs.

Cindy has a background in merchandising, owned her own store for 14 years, and has worked for some magnificent iconic names, so she helped integrate my work into my home in a way that felt gallery-esque, with a hint of boutique, “very Lambertville home store” she called it, and she’s right there’s so much charm here now it drips off the walls. lol.

But the point is, I did all of this moving without realizing I was standing on top of the 10-year anniversary of the official move into this house, the literal beginning of my career, and not just into the house, but into the same ROOM!

It dawned on me just before Cindy and I started a livestream for her Instagram channel, so I bared it all for her viewers and recorded the interview on my device. It’s twenty-five minutes but a fun twenty-five minutes, at least it was for us… Watch and enjoy, and here’s to my chance at answering that age-old question…

If you had to go back and do it all over again, knowing what you know now, what would you do differently?